For a long time I’ve been very unhappy with how I look. My belly is jiggly, and when I sit down the rolls of fat are just gross. Don’t get me wrong, I like who I am, just not how I look. I’ve been overweight most of my life, and have complained about it the entire time. Recently I saw some video footage and photos of myself that just made me cry. I looked awful.
I’m 42 years-old. For the last 18 months I’ve been trying to regain my health, and it is finally getting better. Now is the time for me to get this body into a shape I can enjoy, before it’s too late.
I’m not aiming for supermodel skinny (I may be a dreamer, but I’m not crazy! Hell, I wouldn’t mind looking like Claudia Schiffer or Tyra Banks. But you’d have to stack two of me to make one of them, and then I’d have to deal with all that popularity crap, an I’d rather just stay short unknown me.)
Last week Jolene told me that it takes 14 days to form a habit, good or bad. Today was day One. I hit the gym & walked on the treadmill for 30 minutes. Steven showed me how to use the weight machine, and I’ll do that again, too, as long as he’s there to help me, since I’m too short to reach the bars by myself! I’ll be there again tomorrow, even if my legs ache. Even if I wake up with Claudia Schiffer’s figure! Come Hell or high water, supermodel or bodyaches, I am doing this.
I need to feel good about myself.